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the soul desires expression

the soul desires expression

we are all broken

each one of us

not just those who so generously

let us let it witness it,

but every human being

tied to her human family

with the pain, strife, war and famine

that have lived before us

and so live IN us also

 

we are here 

to learn to live

in the excruciating pain

of our humanity

 

we are here to acknowledge

our vulnerabilities,

to encounter

our shadows

 

we are here to be humbled

by the depth of our ancestral pain,

to walk into our shadowlands

accompanied by

the compassionate witness

who waits and watches and comforts,

who knows

that this baptism of fire

is the first step

towards our next evolution.

 

we have survived

that is true

but now we must learn to heal,

to spend time

giving to our ancestors

that compassion

which they didn't

have the luxury 

to gift themselves.

 

we must make room for each other's suffering

we must not look away from each other's agony

or hide from our own.

 

we are survivors,

but that which we ignored

in order to move forward

must now be brought

tenderly

into the light.

 

only the strong have survived

and so we are terrified

of our weaknesses

our damage

our despair

our defeat

our sensitivity

our hearts

broken beyond repair

 

but these precious defeats

live inside us

alongside our stories

of survival,

 silenced.

 so that the strong

can continue to inherit our earth

 

these rejects

ignored and shunned,

hold knowledge

we can no longer

afford to do without

they call out from within us,

they are desperate,

sending the best of us

to graves dug by our very own hands

 

these untouchables

 

 

connect us

with the ground beneath of feet

teach us the necessity of humility,

open doors

that have been locked

for the millennium.

 

they wait to guide us

gently

back

to our wholeness

both the darkness and the light

acknowledged at last.

 

our brokenness

is our way forward,

may we embrace it

may we acknowledge it

may we make room

for our greatest teacher.

 

You are Enough

You are Enough

I just wanted to remind you this week that you are enough, you have achieved enough, you have loved enough, you have contributed enough, you are enough.

I don't know about you but I am sometimes pretty hard on myself. I'm always looking at what I could have done, how I could have done better and comparing myself with people who seem to be doing better in life than I am. 

"How do they have time to do that?" I ask, "How do they fit that in on top of all the other things they have to do? How can they make that work?"

And if I'm feeling weary and tired I question myself and tell myself to keep going no matter how I'm feeling.

"Why are you tired? There's no reason for you to be tired, you're just going to have to keep going," that perfectionist voice inside me says.

And I know that this way of thinking is the building block to anxiety and conflicted feelings and yet, even after all these years of meditating I find myself listening to this un-constructive voice and giving it more power than it deserves.

Last week I had a very long "To Do" list and yet I felt really tired and it was taking me longer than it should have to complete easy tasks.

I decided to go rogue and take myself down to the beach for some much needed quiet time. I made my way to the sand dunes and climbed to the top and lay there in the spring sunshine, listening to my breath.

At first I was beating myself up for all the things that I should have been doing but slowly the breathing started to slow my mind down a little and I was able to hear the waves and feel the gentle wind on my skin and watch the birds as they circled in the blue sky above me.

After about twenty minutes I felt calmer and more in tune with the natural world around me. I felt that nature herself was recalibrating my thinking into a calmer and more receptive state. From here I was able to see my life from a different perspective. I was able to see (and feel) the many blessings of my life, and this gratitude grew as I lay in the sand dunes doing absolutely nothing.

In the past, I may not have even allowed myself to do such a frivolous thing in the middle of a work day, but I knew from past experience that this time I took, would be more valuable than any other more immediately constructive work I could do.

This week, my wish for you (and for myself) is that we take the time we need to feel balanced and peaceful. That we give ourselves the rest and replenishment we need, free of the guilt that sometimes stalks our most precious moments.

Take an inventory of all you have done for others this week (your family, your work colleagues, your friends, your pets) and also consider all the ways you have made the world a better place.

You are so much more precious and worthy than you think. You are doing so much more than you give yourself credit for. You are spreading love and kindness in the world. You deserve to take some time to rest your body and mind.

You are beautiful

and you are enough

you are enough

you are more than enough.

Can we please rest in this knowledge for even a short time this week?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Our Mother

Our Mother

 

Our Mother

beneath our feet

blessed be your name.

 

Your wisdom come

your love be felt

on earth

that we can make it a heaven.

 

Give us today our daily compassion

and forgive us for loving ourselves too little.

 

Lead us not into separation,

but bring us to balance;

for thine is the earth

the wonder and the beauty,

for ever and ever.

 

Living in Aotearoa/New Zealand we have a special relationship to the land and the nature that surrounds us. One day a few years ago, when I was living on Karitane beach I came up with this feminine companion to the Our Father and called it Our Mother. It is a simple prayer, but I feel that it has great power in that it balances the masculine imagery and energy that we have come to know so well, with the lesser known but no less important feminine perspective.

Most of us can recite the Our Father, which is at the heart of all Christian spirituality. This prayer has given me great comfort over the years as has the Hail Mary.

But as I have grown and evolved I have been questioning more and more the lack of feminine influences in the Christian spiritual tradition. Things are slowly changing and Pope Francis is finally speaking out on behalf of Mother Earth, but there is a long way to go.

I love this prayer and bring it to mind whenever I feel the need to feel the relief of the ground beneath my feet, or be comforted by the compassionate feminine energy embodied in nature.

I share it with you in the way it was shared with me...in the  spirit of love, balance and increased compassion for our world.

My latest batch of soul stones are inspired by this prayer and many of them carry words and phrases found in the simple prayer above. They act as a reminder of the love and beauty that surround us, and they bring us back to simple truths that we are sometimes too busy to remember.

Thanks so much for reading and I hope you take some soul food with you through the rest of your day x